I have loved

Within me I search words to describe him by

But all I manage, is to cry

I go about my life as though he never existed

Though deep within, he never exited

I never loved another or 'felt' loved by another

so in sync as; he and I together

I will outgrow this someday, to myself I think

But no denying that I am weak

I will need the universe in its entirety at my aid

For I am and always will be afraid

To love, have, give, only to lose, hurt and pain

Unless it is him, that I fall for again

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. With this I am content.

It never ended.

So we broke up, Tim and I,

All I do now is dance to the song,

In the safe of my broken heart,

Dripping from my soft lips,

The song that never ended.

Hidden behind this pile of paperwork,

I’m immersed in great sadness,

Engulfed in profound loneliness,

My feet tapping away to the song,

The song that never ended.

All I did Monday evening,

In my delicate shiny robe,

Alone in the empty house,

Was dance under the dim lights,

To the song that never ended.

With every turn, I felt you beside me,

With every step, your silky lips necking me,

With every swirl, was your easy touch,

With every dip, I fell into your loving arms,

And just like before the song never ended.

For what it's worth

I have a crush (Is it still called that long after 12 months)

That will not go away

Feels like I’m in too deep

Have I lost my mind?

I just like talking to you

I like you

That is what it is.

I don’t know how it started

Or when it did

I just know I can’t sleep

I can’t eat anymore

Waiting for love to walk through the door

I wish I didn’t miss you anymore

It is how its is.

What you don’t understand is that

I would catch a grenade for you

Throw my hand on a blade for you

I’d jump in front of a train for you

I would do anything for you

Yes I would die for you baibe

Yet I don’t know why

I would go through all this pain for you

It just is what it is.

There were days I thought I wouldn’t survive

If I didn’t hear your voice

Without that kiss

And it’s been a long time coming

But when it does

I will be here with arms wide open

I’m too in love to let go

And if I don’t try then I’ll never know

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Now I’m running in circles

Going to the start

It is what it is.

When you feel like you are stuck in reverse

Like you

Lights will guide you home

Back to me

And I will be there to love you

Each and every night

And I will try to fix you.

What I should have said

Lets make our motorcycle diaries...

Is what I should have said,

But I never told you I just held it in,

You were in my dreams...

I will have breakfast with you at the Chalet...

Now I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you -

Even after that melt-down

Come to Naivasha with me?

I bought you a gift.

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I am around you

Watch the most beautiful sunset with me...

Yes I will have coffee with you...

I miss your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

It came from nowhere...

You are right we all do...

We all fall short of glory

Lost in ourself

I am scared...

I hate that you put me in this position...

I am not sorry...

At least now I know...

I will never forget

I will never regret

One day maybe we'll meet again

Closer to the edge.

Inspired by: Colbie Caillat- I never told you

30 seconds to mars- Closer to the edge

Courtesy of Meme's Playlist ;)