Rhythmic healing

It was me calling, in the middle of the night
Tired of running, I wanted instead, to fight
Because I was aching, from a wound
A painful cut of betrayal, decades old
Threatening to rip my insides apart

That night, I chose to call you
Because you are aloof to my pain
Which strangely makes you strong
Stronger than I have dared to be
Power over my weakness

You understood; without a word spoken
that, I didn't want love, not that night
I didn't want care, at least not then
I needed healing, and I found it there
In the pounding inside your chest
Your heart rhythmically consoling mine

Rocking me in your tight embrace
Quiet like the snow, yet so warm
Tranquility descended on me
A rare peace washed over me

I hoped that is what forgiveness feels like.

To be wanted

For someone to fix her in a gaze
Is all she wanted.

For that someone to find
Irresistible in her form
Breathtaking in her lips
The milky way in her eyes
A treasure worth digging
A blizzard worth braving

Enough was being said
But she wanted to feel it
In the beat of his heart
As he leaned into her
Arrested…
by her femininity so unique
He would be unable to peel himself
off of her…

He would want her unashamedly,
Unashamed indeed, for he would know
With a knowledge so intimate
That what stands in his presence
Is royal, if not goddess
He would be painfully aware
Of every second lost
Painful indeed, for he would know
With a knowledge so profound
That what is in his possession
Is rare, if not divine.

Slowly…
It dawns on her
This is romantic
Only when it doesn’t happen.

I have loved

Within me I search words to describe him by

But all I manage, is to cry

I go about my life as though he never existed

Though deep within, he never exited

I never loved another or 'felt' loved by another

so in sync as; he and I together

I will outgrow this someday, to myself I think

But no denying that I am weak

I will need the universe in its entirety at my aid

For I am and always will be afraid

To love, have, give, only to lose, hurt and pain

Unless it is him, that I fall for again

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. With this I am content.

Our motorcycle diaries

Now that it's no longer awkward and

Though I haven’t the slightest clue

There is something I would like to do

Surprise you.

I want to give you a random call

After being silent all summer long

Ask you to a ball

Read drinks and football

At a local mall…

Catch up on the latest of Al gore

Pretend not to have an agenda at all

While I quietly scheme a plot

To steal a motorbike

And get you to come with me on a boat

On a tour, of a small crater lake

Then hike to the mountaintop

To catch the best view at sunset

Pop a bottle of chardonnay white

And just celebrate

Naivasha is a place of magic

Humming to nature’s music

Appealing to the artistic

Peaceful on the hammock

Everything is frolicsome

Encourages me to party some

There Paula (Kahumbu) got engaged

I was humbled

Martin got martini-ed

Grace disgraced and

We will be healed.

Come with me to Naivasha

wait for it... on a motorbike?

Was it not you who wanted to know if I ride...

Am I right?

For what it's worth

I have a crush (Is it still called that long after 12 months)

That will not go away

Feels like I’m in too deep

Have I lost my mind?

I just like talking to you

I like you

That is what it is.

I don’t know how it started

Or when it did

I just know I can’t sleep

I can’t eat anymore

Waiting for love to walk through the door

I wish I didn’t miss you anymore

It is how its is.

What you don’t understand is that

I would catch a grenade for you

Throw my hand on a blade for you

I’d jump in front of a train for you

I would do anything for you

Yes I would die for you baibe

Yet I don’t know why

I would go through all this pain for you

It just is what it is.

There were days I thought I wouldn’t survive

If I didn’t hear your voice

Without that kiss

And it’s been a long time coming

But when it does

I will be here with arms wide open

I’m too in love to let go

And if I don’t try then I’ll never know

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Now I’m running in circles

Going to the start

It is what it is.

When you feel like you are stuck in reverse

Like you

Lights will guide you home

Back to me

And I will be there to love you

Each and every night

And I will try to fix you.

What I should have said

Lets make our motorcycle diaries...

Is what I should have said,

But I never told you I just held it in,

You were in my dreams...

I will have breakfast with you at the Chalet...

Now I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you -

Even after that melt-down

Come to Naivasha with me?

I bought you a gift.

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I am around you

Watch the most beautiful sunset with me...

Yes I will have coffee with you...

I miss your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

It came from nowhere...

You are right we all do...

We all fall short of glory

Lost in ourself

I am scared...

I hate that you put me in this position...

I am not sorry...

At least now I know...

I will never forget

I will never regret

One day maybe we'll meet again

Closer to the edge.

Inspired by: Colbie Caillat- I never told you

30 seconds to mars- Closer to the edge

Courtesy of Meme's Playlist ;)

Our twilight saga

Dear Edward You,

When it seems like it’s quiet
And there is a silence in the darkness
And it sounds like the carnival is over
And as you walk in the crowded empty spaces
And you stare at the emptiness around you
I will be there and you will be there
We’ll find each other in the dark

And you will see and I’ll see it too
Cause we’ll be together in the dark

And if it terrifies you then it terrifies me
Cause I will be there.

Cause if it’s coming for you then it’s coming for me
But I will be there.

And if its panicking you then its panicking me
So we’ve got each other in the dark.

Cause we’ll need each other in the dark.

Yours,

Bella Me.


Words inspired by DJ Tiesto –In the dark.