Rhythmic healing

It was me calling, in the middle of the night
Tired of running, I wanted instead, to fight
Because I was aching, from a wound
A painful cut of betrayal, decades old
Threatening to rip my insides apart

That night, I chose to call you
Because you are aloof to my pain
Which strangely makes you strong
Stronger than I have dared to be
Power over my weakness

You understood; without a word spoken
that, I didn't want love, not that night
I didn't want care, at least not then
I needed healing, and I found it there
In the pounding inside your chest
Your heart rhythmically consoling mine

Rocking me in your tight embrace
Quiet like the snow, yet so warm
Tranquility descended on me
A rare peace washed over me

I hoped that is what forgiveness feels like.

I AM YOU

I look at you and I want to cry

I look at you and I want to embrace you


I look at you and I wonder why

I look at you and I wonder how

I look at you...And it's me I see.


I see you and I shudder

I see you and my mind is in a fit

I see you and I want to hurt you

I see you..and I hate that I like what I see

I see you, and it's me I see.


I think of you and my heart aches

I think of you, and tears overpower me

I think of you and my strength fails me

I think of you and I want to die

I think of you...And it's me I see.


I don't cry much but I cry over you

I think much...

It's you I'm thinking about

I love much, but I never love you

I care much, but I don't care for you.

I laugh much, but I don't laugh with you.

I wish to embrace you though, but I can't.

What I don't understand is my hate for you

Yet...I AM YOU.

By Gatavi

I have loved

Within me I search words to describe him by

But all I manage, is to cry

I go about my life as though he never existed

Though deep within, he never exited

I never loved another or 'felt' loved by another

so in sync as; he and I together

I will outgrow this someday, to myself I think

But no denying that I am weak

I will need the universe in its entirety at my aid

For I am and always will be afraid

To love, have, give, only to lose, hurt and pain

Unless it is him, that I fall for again

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. With this I am content.

It never ended.

So we broke up, Tim and I,

All I do now is dance to the song,

In the safe of my broken heart,

Dripping from my soft lips,

The song that never ended.

Hidden behind this pile of paperwork,

I’m immersed in great sadness,

Engulfed in profound loneliness,

My feet tapping away to the song,

The song that never ended.

All I did Monday evening,

In my delicate shiny robe,

Alone in the empty house,

Was dance under the dim lights,

To the song that never ended.

With every turn, I felt you beside me,

With every step, your silky lips necking me,

With every swirl, was your easy touch,

With every dip, I fell into your loving arms,

And just like before the song never ended.

What I should have said

Lets make our motorcycle diaries...

Is what I should have said,

But I never told you I just held it in,

You were in my dreams...

I will have breakfast with you at the Chalet...

Now I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you -

Even after that melt-down

Come to Naivasha with me?

I bought you a gift.

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I am around you

Watch the most beautiful sunset with me...

Yes I will have coffee with you...

I miss your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

It came from nowhere...

You are right we all do...

We all fall short of glory

Lost in ourself

I am scared...

I hate that you put me in this position...

I am not sorry...

At least now I know...

I will never forget

I will never regret

One day maybe we'll meet again

Closer to the edge.

Inspired by: Colbie Caillat- I never told you

30 seconds to mars- Closer to the edge

Courtesy of Meme's Playlist ;)

Our twilight saga

Dear Edward You,

When it seems like it’s quiet
And there is a silence in the darkness
And it sounds like the carnival is over
And as you walk in the crowded empty spaces
And you stare at the emptiness around you
I will be there and you will be there
We’ll find each other in the dark

And you will see and I’ll see it too
Cause we’ll be together in the dark

And if it terrifies you then it terrifies me
Cause I will be there.

Cause if it’s coming for you then it’s coming for me
But I will be there.

And if its panicking you then its panicking me
So we’ve got each other in the dark.

Cause we’ll need each other in the dark.

Yours,

Bella Me.


Words inspired by DJ Tiesto –In the dark.