Misery Business

Strumming my chords of weakness, you!

Simultaneously breaking and making

My heart.

Have mercy I scream, drowning

Beneath the sound of your ignorance

So blissful

I can't, no I won't do this anymore

If I had a choice

I would walk away, into oblivion

so far

from this pain of you, I inflict on me

Cool calm collect, so together, you!

never realising, never seeing

never.

I say never again, ever

But how forever can I stay

away.

I can't, no I won't linger here

If I could

Leave I would but where is my

will,

When I more than need him

betrayal of one's feelings to oneself, of one's head

to one's heart.

My heart, why, couldn't you pick

on one,

One that requites, one that feels

the same,

As I, why, did you have to reach for

what you can't

No I can't, I won't play this games

No more.

Behold Johnnie seats crying

cursing

See Sam outdoes himself phone

call

After call after, why not return

Why

Can't you, you want to but why

Won't you

I can't, no I won't settle for that which

is available

Just because it is, I will pain instead

hoping helplessly that I find, you!

Something is wrong with the world,

My world,

It don't spin right, it don't tilt right,

it orbits

Around all that is so rightfully wrong

as if, guided, misled, directed by a blind

yet all knowing, truth, true north

True, yes true to you, you!

Rest come to me, content please, I welcome

you,

forgetfulness, nothingness

I'd rather die than fight, not,

I want, yet I can't let go of you

I need strength, to unclench

unfeel

I won't, I can't turn off my life support

You!