Sunday, April 3, 2011

It never ended.



So we broke up, Tim and I,

All I do now is dance to the song,

In the safe of my broken heart,

Dripping from my soft lips,

The song that never ended.


Hidden behind this pile of paperwork,

I’m immersed in great sadness,

Engulfed in profound loneliness,

My feet tapping away to the song,

The song that never ended.


All I did Monday evening,

In my delicate shiny robe,

Alone in the empty house,

Was dance under the dim lights,

To the song that never ended.


With every turn, I felt you beside me,

With every step, your silky lips necking me,

With every swirl, was your easy touch,

With every dip, I fell into your loving arms,

And just like before the song never ended.


Saturday, January 22, 2011

Our motorcycle diaries


Now that it's no longer awkward and

Though I haven’t the slightest clue

There is something I would like to do

Surprise you.


I want to give you a random call

After being silent all summer long

Ask you to a ball

Read drinks and football

At a local mall…

Catch up on the latest of Al gore

Pretend not to have an agenda at all

While I quietly scheme a plot

To steal a motorbike

And get you to come with me on a boat

On a tour, of a small crater lake

Then hike to the mountaintop

To catch the best view at sunset

Pop a bottle of chardonnay white

And just celebrate


Naivasha is a place of magic

Humming to nature’s music

Appealing to the artistic

Peaceful on the hammock

Everything is frolicsome

Encourages me to party some


There Paula (Kahumbu) got engaged

I was humbled

Martin got martini-ed

Grace disgraced and

We will be healed.


Come with me to Naivasha

wait for it... on a motorbike?

Was it not you who wanted to know if I ride...

Am I right?

Misery Business




Strumming my chords of weakness, you!
Simultaneously breaking and making
My heart.
Have mercy I scream, drowning
Beneath the sound of your ignorance
So blissful
I can't, no I won't do this anymore
If I had a choice
I would walk away, into oblivion
so far
from this pain of you, I inflict on me

Cool calm collect, so together, you!
never realising, never seeing
never.
I say never again, ever
But how forever can I stay
away.
I can't, no I won't linger here
If I could
Leave I would but where is my
will,
When I more than need him
betrayal of one's feelings to oneself, of one's head
to one's heart.

My heart, why, couldn't you pick
on one,
One that requites, one that feels
the same,
As I, why, did you have to reach for
what you can't
No I can't, I won't play this games
No more.

Behold Johnnie seats crying
cursing
See Sam outdoes himself phone
call
After call after, why not return
Why
Can't you, you want to but why
Won't you
I can't, no I won't settle for that which
is available
Just because it is, I will pain instead
hoping helplessly that I find, you!

Something is wrong with the world,
My world,
It don't spin right, it don't tilt right,
it orbits
Around all that is so rightfully wrong
as if, guided, misled, directed by a blind
yet all knowing, truth, true north
True, yes true to you, you!

Rest come to me, content please, I welcome
you,
forgetfulness, nothingness
I'd rather die than fight, not,
I want, yet I can't let go of you
I need strength, to unclench
unfeel
I won't, I can't turn off my life support
You!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

For what it's worth



I have a crush (Is it still called that long after 12 months)

That will not go away

Feels like I’m in too deep

Have I lost my mind?

I just like talking to you

I like you

That is what it is.


I don’t know how it started

Or when it did

I just know I can’t sleep

I can’t eat anymore

Waiting for love to walk through the door

I wish I didn’t miss you anymore

It is how its is.


What you don’t understand is that

I would catch a grenade for you

Throw my hand on a blade for you

I’d jump in front of a train for you

I would do anything for you

Yes I would die for you baibe

Yet I don’t know why

I would go through all this pain for you

It just is what it is.


There were days I thought I wouldn’t survive

If I didn’t hear your voice

Without that kiss

And it’s been a long time coming

But when it does

I will be here with arms wide open

I’m too in love to let go

And if I don’t try then I’ll never know

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Now I’m running in circles

Going to the start

It is what it is.


When you feel like you are stuck in reverse

Like you

Lights will guide you home

Back to me

And I will be there to love you

Each and every night

And I will try to fix you.

Monday, January 3, 2011

What I should have said

Lets make our motorcycle diaries...

Is what I should have said,
But I never told you I just held it in,

You were in my dreams...

I will have breakfast with you at the Chalet...

Now I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you -
Even after that melt-down

Come to Naivasha with me?

I bought you a gift.

You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I am around you

Watch the most beautiful sunset with me...

Yes I will have coffee with you...

I miss your blue eyes
Every time I close mine

It came from nowhere...

You are right we all do...

We all fall short of glory
Lost in ourself

I am scared...

I hate that you put me in this position...

I am not sorry...

At least now I know...

I will never forget
I will never regret
One day maybe we'll meet again
Closer to the edge.


Courtesy of Meme's Playlist ;)

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Our twilight saga



Dear Edward You,

When it seems like it’s quiet
And there is a silence in the darkness
And it sounds like the carnival is over
And as you walk in the crowded empty spaces
And you stare at the emptiness around you
I will be there and you will be there
We’ll find each other in the dark

And you will see and I’ll see it too
Cause we’ll be together in the dark

And if it terrifies you then it terrifies me
Cause I will be there.

Cause if it’s coming for you then it’s coming for me
But I will be there.

And if its panicking you then its panicking me
So we’ve got each other in the dark.

Cause we’ll need each other in the dark.

Yours,

Bella Me.


Words inspired by DJ Tiesto –In the dark.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Halt! Hush! Hark!




Phone please, ring not, trill not,
Interrupt not my short break,
Nothing could be more important,
Madame hath to get her rest.

Boyfriend please, go away, stay away,
Care yes, from a distance,
Let me have this 3 days to myself,
Have you not things to do by thyself?
Be with the boys, glue self to the screen,
Handsomely I will reward, you, I give my word.

Girlfriend please, no shopping, no hen night,
This time I am enough company,
No ranting, just decompressing,
I know my way to the spa,
I can pick the colour of my nail polish,
Worry not,
Say hullo to Mary for me, drinks on me,
I'll hear all about it once I return.

You know not how to relax,
Thou hasn't learnt to catch thy breathe,
Run and run you run, have you no stop?
The things you chase, won't they come to you?
What you chase, always runs from you, they say.

Lie down my stubborn body and recuperate,
Rest oh big head, and catch a snooze,
Here, take this happy pill,
It'll calm your nerves, maybe knock you out,
A couple of hours, sleep hard,
Forget thy tribulations, find peace, reconcile.

Forget the drink, it will do you no good,
Never has, don't fight this, its true,
Make peace with self forgive your iniquities,
Embrace who you are, fight not your fate,
Make the best of what you possess,
Take not for granted those offering a hand,
Dream again, breathe afresh, walk anew,
Rebirth, second chance, new slab.